Knock knock...
I answered who's it??
It's Bamidele,I wanna give you your lost item...
Me:🤨 lost item??
Him: yea.lol...not really a lost item... You forgot your purse in the car.
Me:oh that.... _reluctant to open the door_
Thanks but that can wait till tomorrow..yea?
He: ....uhmm ..yea..but then I wanna check on yhu🤭...
Me: oh..lol.... _opens the door_
Come in.
(He smelt nice again😤😩,I felt his presence....I could see his well built muscular chest through his transparent singlet...I got carried away by his physique and smile...then he poked me)
He: (smiles) here....your purse.
Me:thanks...a lot..for today😅
(I did want to talk to someone, so I felt he shouldn't leave). But then I wanted him to leave,I wanted drink myself to stupor🤦🏽♀... The magic moment vodka I drank started the intoxicating effect just when he got to my room😩...then I turned around to drop the purse on the bed and I felt his fresh,warm and soft palm around my neck....wow!
A necklace...a birthday gift??!!...I've not gotten any since morning that i got worked up!...omg!! it's beautiful was what I uttered
..I said thanks and I hugged him..then the music player changed to the song *perfect by ed sheeran ft Beyonce*😅
I never wanted to leave him,my tiny self in his large arm was so comfortable!
He was caressing my hair till he got to my spine...that felt so nice😏❗
I still held on to him...I was wearing a lilac coloured transparent "nightie".
I discovered he was staring at my cleavage ,then I covered my chest properly.. My inner mind wanted the robe off😩😩😅.
I pulled away...he pulled me close and started kissing me ...I kissed back (don't Blame me,I was high🤷🏽♀)... He kissed me so good for long and threw me to the massive king sized bed,it was like American movie to me😂😂....kissing very inch of my body😌..I kukuma love kissing😅
Moved to my titties,Bami_dele played with em well,I was wet❗
He moved to my *_puna_* ,did the thing with his tongue and mouth..my moan was madt😮,I already wanted him inside me❗..I was out of this world already😂,I stroked him so well and gave him nice head...we made out for Roughly 3hours😮
Well,I already had plans of loosing it that very night to Dami😐
But then he's _outta my head_ and my life...
Then he thrust!!!!!🤦🏽♀
I came back to my sense and told him to *_slide out*_!!!!but whoa!!!! The deed has been done!
I saw a trace of brightly coloured blood😖...omg!!! What have I done?!
My heart started beating faster than usual...many thoughts came to my head...The festival?!!
What would I tell my friends?! I'm no more part of clique!!😢
oh my!!
At the same ,I was battling with cramps!!😖
and he was really hard,begging me not to do this to him.... Fine..I went ahead, since it can't be averted anymore... I had it with him and enjoyed it without protection (I've always wanted my first sex to be without CD)..He was so gentle,calm and made me so Comfortable.....🤩
We had a nice time.....I did not regret doing it actually😅
Then I welcomed myself to the women world!😎. He whispered into my ears...you were so good.. I love what we had and I love you...
I was dumbfounded at the word " *LOVE*"..then accepted the compliment with Okurrrr..😅😅,thinking I found another love and comfort Zone❗...
I slept on his chest till day break.
He helped pack my stuff before I woke and cleaned the whole place.....
It was 9:55am.I woke up looking so tired, and I found my breakfast on the shelf beside my bed..saw a sticky note on it which says......
Which says....
"Hi honey,, hope yhu slept well,I love yhu and I really want you to be mine ..pls dont say no"....
I giggled and said to my self...who's this one? Does he think I want to love again??🙄 I dropped the note!
He came out if the bathroom few minutes later...I was taking my breakfast already...
He smiled and I got enticed again,he asked me if he can call me HIS...and I said yes without thinking😂😂😂😂.,he was damn happy....he told me I'm beautiful.. I was feeling myself😃 and he kissed me... *Indeed the moment was magical!!* I told myself😂I did not even ask about his previous or present relationship...I just got Boo'd up in a hotel on my birthday night and damn I lost it to a stranger....I cursed Dami🌚 that dumped me..
I freshened up....couldn't walk well...Baba has one big cassava aff nefa seen before😂😂...
We had another round before leaving the hotel..we talked ,laughed and he gave me assurance😅 of loving me till eternity,then we checked out.He took me back to my hall😌.he promised to see me the following day...💃🏽💃🏽
I was the happiest being on earth that very day..
Getting to my room...
My roommates were expecting gist😂
I told them OLeRi o...but then Eliza has a way of getting words from me..she must be a winch🌚😅.
I told her some basic things but not the sex part 😖.
They were all amazed I was looking so radiant and happy...sex has a way of making one happy I said to myself💅🏽.
He kept coming, buying me gifts ,taking me out on dates,he took me to where he was staying, I was always sleeping over and always _knacking_ with protection these times🌚.we were having fun,...he made me forget about my ex...
I was functioning well until I was slightly indisposed... I tot it was malaria.. So I went ahead to the Hospital...
I went to Jaja clinic in my school....by myself and for myself😢
I met with the young female doctor... Her name was Doctor Amanda....it was a nurse that carried out the test...
So my test result was sent to her....
Boom💥💥
She broke my heart
Doc.Amanda:Young lady ...this is your result....
Me: (glanced thru) sorry I don't seem to understand this....what's it all about?!
Doc: you're HIV positive!!!
Me:: me?!!....
What are you talking about...how?!😨
Are you sure the results were not mixed??! Pls call the nurse!!
I was shouting Nurse! nurse!! You got a wrong result!!
But then the doctor told me to calm down..it's mine....my world shattered again!!💔💔
Jesus! Why?! What have I done to encounter this?!....my inner mind told me "you fornicated"!
She was trying to talk me out of screaming... I grabbed the forceps lying on her table... Wanted to cut my veins and throat Then she grabbed me and held me so tight
Was telling her to let me die...she calmed me..and told me it's not the end of the world.
She asked questions about how i contacted it..I told her my story with Bamidele then she advised me to bring the guy so we can both be on medications.. She said probably he doesn't know...I told her to shut up!!! Oh my!!I didn't know when I said it🤦🏽♀.
Just when I was about leaving I saw his call...I didnt pick because I was too weak to talk😭.
I finally picked!!
I screamed, snapped and shouted at him... He asked if I was still at jaja I said yes!
And I told him never to look for me❗
Dang! He didn'tknow he has too.
No! I still can't forgive him...for making me this way...months of unprotected sex😪..
He drove to Jaja clinic in no time...he was tryna hold me to explain.. But then I created a scene and he was forced to drag me into the clinic..he had his own test carried out too and was positive I was so pissed....
I was furious... But nothing to do🤦🏽♀
He really apologized and felt so bad for me ..
Then he promised to take care of the hospital bills and all....he promised to marry me too🤦🏽♀
I regretted ever having sex..it Was meant to be pleasure and fun according to people but it's the other way round for me.!
What would i tell my family ?
I have less years on this earth now😪
Can I ever be happy again?!
Who should I blame?
Myself?! Damilola🙄?! Or Bamidele?!!!!..
I should have use protection!!... And he didn't even suggest it🤦🏽♀🤦🏽♀..
I'll have to live with this till the rest of my life😖!
Omg!!! This is so crazy rn😢
Though Bamidele is trying very hard to make me happy...but then..it's not working😪
Thats the story of my life... He's living happily believing that being HIV positive is not the end of the world so far he's taking his medications...
He really tried to make me believe too😐....
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*****
I've learnt to live with it too😌
It's not the end of the world or my career...
Were still having good sex...and living a better life💗...we're looking forward to having kids of our own💃🏽💃🏽..
Youths of nowadays,To avoid the life-claiming accident,use protection or abstain !!!
Dont be like Ire!!😌
I love you all💛.
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